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12:34 am: The Longer Story




This is the best picture I have of Spirit -- she's on the left -- and Shiva is on the right. Shiva is the last cat that died two years ago and Spirit was just crazy at not having any other cats so I got Junie & Loki from the Animal Control where it turned out that the person who brought them there lied a lot.

When I left Spirit at the ER near midnight on Friday, I came home and was online, read another old paper, and went to bed to try to read a story. It was clearly meant to be confusing, but I wasn't understanding so I put it down and went to sleep at 7am.

The Internal Medicine vet called at 11am and gave me the two sets of choices -- chemo or not, short time at home or not -- and I told him I'd call them back when I decided. I got up and dressed and in the process decided that euthanasia was the best option. I called and told the aide that. She asked when I could come and I said "Now," but she told me they were starting a surgery and it would be good if I came in 45 minutes to an hour. I said okay and was planning to read another old paper but I realized my stomach was growling and went on to Tony's. I had a Greek salad and cheese garlic toast, which covered the required minimum of calories, but I needed more protein.

When I got to the IM, I only got down about a half-page of the paper when the aide showed me to an exam room. She brought me Spirit who purred for me but her eyes kept shut. I talked to her telling her how wonderful she was and how much I loved her and so forth and then the aide came in with some papers. Did I want her cremated singly or multiply -- singly, of course -- would I like them to put her paw print on a poem that's meant to hang -- and I said no, which surprised her.

The vet came in, made sure I understood what was going to happen and since Spirit still had the IV connection in, he just put the anesthetic in and her head dropped on my forearm. He put in the euthanasia med and she collapsed. She was hard to hold because her muscles didn't work anymore and she felt much heavier. The doctor took her away and an aide from the ER brought my carrier and towel and told me they needed my card to give me money back since they didn't use all that was in my deposit. She was kind and went and ran it through, brought me the receipt to to sign, then brought me the card and the final receipt.

I came home and posted the one before this and was in bed by 4pm. I tried reading that story again and this time I understood it, but I kept going to sleep. I went to sleep at 4:30pm and woke up at 10:35pm. I considered turning the computer back on, but decided I'd do that today. I just sat and watched the Irene coverage (we didn't even have heavy rain this far west) while I read another old paper (I'm up to last Sunday, but in a few hours, I'll have a new Monday). I went to bed at 6am and had the alarm set to 2pm. I turned the alarm off at 2pm and thought I was just thinking about her, but when I looked at the alarm and it was 3:45pm, I had clearly slept some of that time.

I read all the comments and I really appreciate all the thoughts and feelings. They helped a lot. After that, I put an order in to Peapod, who will be coming on Thursday; I put an order into Vocelli to bring me pizza and their excellent cheesesticks; and I went through my traditional order to this point. Irene must have made the crickets come out because Loki and Junie have eaten about a half-dozen each so far.

One of the ads in the Sunday coupon batch said "Diet Iced Tea" and I couldn't figure out what that was -- you just make the tea without anything else. So I looked it up and lo! It it just has substitute sweetener. I ran through all of their teas and they all have some form os sweetener in them.

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From:akirlu
Date:August 29th, 2011 04:57 am (UTC)
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Oh, no! I only caught up with this today. I'm so, so sorry! May your happy memories of her sustain you while you grieve.
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From:mjlayman
Date:August 29th, 2011 05:23 am (UTC)
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Thank you. She was such a cute little cat. :)
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From:frostfox
Date:August 29th, 2011 07:48 am (UTC)
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It's so sad when we lose them, but you gave her a good life. I don't think chemo would have been fair on you or her.

I had Spookie put down at home (I knew I would not be fit to drive after) and I held him, purring his old, failing, heart out the whole time.

Followed the link to the tea... in the UK, we'd buy the teabags and make our own, rather than ready mixed. I do green/white tea and herbal tisanes in a jug, let them go cold, top up with water and ice. Voila, iced tea. The only tisane I add sugar to is Sainsbury's Roship which is very sour, astonishingly refreshing, but needs about a teaspoon of brown sugar to make it drinkable. Asda's Blackberry is pretty tart too.

FF
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From:mjlayman
Date:August 29th, 2011 10:36 pm (UTC)
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I'm sort of out of mobile vets at the moment. The one we used the last two years appear to not know as much as I expected. The one before that talked on her bluetooth the entire time she was printing stuff for me and only asked them to wait when she had to talk to me. The one before that is a bit disorganized. That's all we have who will serve here, so I'm trying to get the first one again, and if not that, the second one. I may have to ask her to put the blurtooth away when she's here (it's not pet talk, it's like a business or a neighbor).

I buy Darjeeling tea leaves in five pounds every six months and make my own, too, but there are a lot of people in the US who think it's too hard. I like bitter tea.
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From:siriosa
Date:August 29th, 2011 05:39 pm (UTC)

handsome creatures

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and the little ones have ... such ... spirit. such fierceness. you have been blessed. may you have comfort in your memories.
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From:mjlayman
Date:August 29th, 2011 10:42 pm (UTC)

Re: handsome creatures

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She was born a with an anxiety disorder and obsessive disorder. After a few months of buspar, she was pretty normal, but she really liked curling up with the other cats:



The white one is Giorgio -- see how they want to curl up so much there's room on the side of the seat?
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From:siriosa
Date:August 29th, 2011 11:50 pm (UTC)

Re: handsome creatures

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that's the best, when they like each other enough to curl up together. my three all like to pretend that they're the only cat. when it's cold, i'll have one on each side of me and one under the covers.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:August 31st, 2011 04:07 am (UTC)

Re: handsome creatures

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Oh, I really like this picture. How sweet, all of them together.
Doris
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From:mjlayman
Date:August 31st, 2011 04:41 am (UTC)

Re: handsome creatures

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Yeah, apparently I don't have a picture of all four of them. Here's
Smudgie. I named him Smudge because of the black bit on his nose, but the vet told me it was a non-contagious rash that would go away in a long time, and it did.

He slept with the others in the recliner sometimes, and sometimes I had all four on top of me.
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From:kip_w
Date:August 29th, 2011 11:28 pm (UTC)
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Rest, good cat.
From:erthefae.blogspot.com
Date:August 30th, 2011 05:38 pm (UTC)

Awwww

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It looks like Shiva is putting his "arm" around her in that picture. So sweet. They were both beautiful kitties.

"Diet" iced tea made with fake sweeteners is a huge pet peeve for me. Why can't it just be plain tea? It's almost impossible to find a flavored iced tea that isn't also sweetened -- there are brands that make them (Ito En has a delicious rose green tea), but most stores don't carry them. Our country is addicted to overly-sweet beverages. *gripe gripe gripe*
From:(Anonymous)
Date:August 31st, 2011 04:05 am (UTC)
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What a lovely picture of Spirit and Shiva. Spirit looks so tiny compared to Shiva.
Please take good care of yourself,
Doris
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From:mjlayman
Date:August 31st, 2011 04:36 am (UTC)
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She was only six pounds, so smaller than most cast. Thanks. :)
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